I sailed through the first doses of Herceptin and Taxol. Some people experience allergic reactions to both of these medications, but I didn't feel a thing. The nurse gave them slow this time, so it took from about 9:30 am to 1:30 pm today to finish. I was fortunate to have my friend (and nurse practitioner) Cheryl take me and pick me up today. A big Thank YOU! I am so grateful to have friends and family to drive me to Pittsburg for my treatments. I know that some patients drive themselves, but I feel a little "hazy" after my treatments and I would fear I might be unsafe driving the 20 miles home.
I got a big dose of "I'm not in control" today. In the plan to receive the Taxol and Herceptin, Friday was going to be "the day" for 12 weeks. So I planned the next 12 weeks (and school starts in 5) schedule around Friday as my chemo day - well!!! Now that treatments were postponed until Monday (today), I have 12 weeks of Mondays to reschedule!!! I was really mad at first - I might have waited to start the medicines this Friday, to keep on MY schedule. I was really mad at myself for not asking the question about keeping Friday, but I assumed (yes, I know - ass-u-me). Oh, well. Killing this disease is my number one priority and I just needed a healthy dose of "you're not in control". God wants me to go on Mondays and I have to be open to the reason, after all - he planned my life a long time ago and He keeps a date book!
You made my whole being; you formed me in my mother's womb. I praise You because You made me in an amazing and wonderful way. What You have done is wonderful. I know this very well. You saw my bones being formed as I took shape in my mother's body. When I was put together there, You saw my body as it was formed. All the days planned for me were written in your book before I was one day old. Psalm 139:13-16
Love, Ellen
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